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Him or Me? by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Him or Me?

Sometimes it's so hard Just to talk to you Because I try explain what I feel And you just say no You wont hear a bad word against him Everything is so perfect When we are together We both look into each other's eyes And our touch reassures us That everything is going to be alright But now I don't know I'm going to let him Tear us apart, from each other From our happiness And see if you realise Dont get me wrong... Losing you would Break me down inside But maybe he's what's best for you So this test will see Who HE really is Him or me?

Em by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Em

When I hurt and feel like shit I turn to drink to do its bit It burns my throat and warms my gut It cheers me up and stops me cut The things that hurt me leave my head I smile and laugh and joke instead If this pain grows too strong For drink to work and things go wrong I use these pills that I retain To slowly kill this mental pain The physical hurt starts as drugs attack Soon everything will fade to black

It's my birthday and... by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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It's my birthday and...

Not long left now until I'm one year older Maybe I'll be stronger And it wont bother me anymore So it's almost here Memories flood my head As I lie here on my bed Struggling to hold on As it draws closer The knife in front of me I can see Reflecting my tears back at me But I can't give in I don't want to give in But maybe I should I don't know, but It's my birthday And I'll die if I want to

Die, or I'll do it for you... by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

It's not over by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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It's not over

Don't bury your problems Cos when you least suspect it They'll claw their way back out Tear a chunk out of you Like a zombie from the crypt Ripping you apart You may think That you're fighting a lost cause But you're not It's not over until I say and we agree Cos this is me I'm in this too It's not over for you... The past is never the past Cos when you least suspect it It will sneak up behind you Pain shooting through you body Like a knife in your back Killing you slowly You may think That you're fighting a lost cause But you're not It's not over until I say and we agree Cos this is me I'm in this too It's not over f

Hiding Place by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Hiding Place

Cold stone engraved with your names Tranquil and morbid I often wonder what it's like to be down there Six feet below me I sit and let the tears hit your bed Maybe you'll hear my cry I come here to write and escape Here to my hiding place Here where all my problems become so clear The fears, the tears All mean nothing and leave me To mourn I don't know any of you I wish I did I wish I could be with you Painless, motionless, lifeless Never leave here for all eternity Never leave my hiding place

Me...me...ME by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Me...me...ME

Re-open this wound To let the tears pour in Trying to drown the pain And all the shame That this brings I don't have to deal With this shit And I shouldn't have to feel Any of this Yet it continues to shadow me Everywhere I go It continues to bother me With everything I do It haunts me And scares me Kills me...me...ME Slice open my wrists Let the pain empty Covering the cold floor As i beg for more and more Praying it's over Yet it continues to shadow me Everywhere I go It continues to bother me With everything I do It haunts me And scares me Kills me...me...ME

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Thanks by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Thanks

That day I sat at home alone Just my dog for company You don't love me or care So you say I don't know what to think anymore I know you don't mean it But you persist in hurting me more "Fuck off" "I don't love you" "I don't care" "Tell someone who gives a shit" How is that going to sort this situation? "You're pathetic" "Take a look at yourself" Yeh, because I didn't feel shit before? Thanks a lot Sort yourself out Maybe I shouldn't be But... I'll be here waiting I love you

Meaningless Feelings by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Meaningless Feelings

Each day I wake and I Just feel like screaming I don't know what this is This shit that I'm feeling I sit and I write down All that I'm feeling But all that appears Is these words without meaning The things that I feel don't Seem to have meaning Nothing has meaning Without you Later I cut and I Can't stop the bleeding I try to succeed But I can't stop my breathing I sit and I cry and I carry on breathing Killing me inside The way you were cheating The things that I feel don't Seem to have meaning Nothing has meaning Without you

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Happiness by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Happiness

I wish I could see the funny side, just like you, Just laugh all my problems away. I don't have a fuckin' clue what to do, You laugh your life away Is tomorrow really worth me living Is tomorrow another day I have to face? Do I have to face it alone? Is it just the same old shit? What comes around goes around Just to smack me in my face again I don't know if this is really it, Is this my punishment for being born? I wish the answer was as easy As it is for me to cry New day, but the same old bruises to my heart Maybe I just create them for myself, I wish I could take hold of them, And throw this pain, away Grab a new life fr

Hurt Machine by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Hurt Machine

Hurt machine Creator of pain When it comes to hurt He cannot refrain During the day he has no heart He bullies, and mocks, and tries To break people down, and tare them apart But when night comes around he realises and cries Sometimes he takes it too far and increases the pain Increases the hurt, turns it up a notch, just a fraction His tiny heart pumps blood like tar through his veins His brain holds him back, slows him down, traction

Hate by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Hate

I hate you more than my emotions ever show I despise you, you repulse me, you make me sick Will you die soon? My mind won't rest till I know I hate you, get it into your head, won't it ever click? Killing you will be as good as sex But instead of screaming for more You'll be begging for less My existence will be a curse on your life An eternal hex By the time I'm finished You'll be limp on the floor Your body a mess Your ego's got too big, you've out grown yourself You think you're so much alike me, one in the same You think that means I can't hate you, but I hate myself The way you look, the way you act, it's so fucking lame

Happiness Plan by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Happiness Plan

You haven't been away that long So missing you would be wrong I won't You've been away sometime now But I'm holding up somehow For you I remember last seing your smile After that I wouldn't see it for a while It sucked But I'm going to get through for you I want to, I need to, and I will do I think So I've got my happiness plan It will get me through cos I know I can I thought about trying to forget you But that wouldn't work cos I love you So I'm just going to think about your return Although the pain might burn I'll be here waiting for you, to hold you To see your smile again, I'll smile too

Unfinished-Unnamed by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Unfinished-Unnamed

I fucking hate this world Why are we even here I call out for help But nobody appears You lead a lifeless life But don't you ask for help You left me here alone It's me against the world It's almost over now You've nearly killed me I wish death on you You still won't help me The end is drawing near It's the beginning of... All that's left to come So I apoligise I never meant to do you harm

The Element of Pain by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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The Element of Pain

I see it falling apart around me It's stupid and I'm sorry This is not all I could be I'm a disgrace to my family I make all you lives so shit Tear them apart, bit by bit But I'm blind, I fail to see it I think, I wish we have a perfect fit The pain I cause is almost constant But things with you are so different I'm the offspring of pain, the element I want to be good, but evil is my alignment

On the Inside by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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On the Inside

Even when I think I'm doing things right All is not as it seems Just because I'm trying People hold back that I am destroying them On the inside She seems so happy, content Always smiling I treat her like she's perfect, an angel Because that is what I really feel It's just tearing her into pieces On the inside Something goes wrong Occasionaly I take a look at the situation Seemingly my fault, so I blame myself Feeling guilt, hate, I'm sorry On the inside No one can understand the hate I feel for myself I put everything I have into this Getting things right for once I'm destroying my whole future, with feelings for her On

Fade Out Of Existence by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Fade Out Of Existence

They lie on the bed Hand in hand Looking into each other's eyes "I love you", he whispers But gets no reply She's smiling though At least he knows she's happy He can settle for that She's said it before anyway Later on she's left He's all alone With nobody to talk to Nobody to care Not that anyone would anyway He's always felt alone till she came along Soon he'll feel alone again When she leaves Everyone always does Goes to his room Lies down, as tears soak his pillow His makeup runs He realises he isn't normal He doesn't deserve her Analyses his life, abuses himself He deserves this punishment Encourages himself to b

The System by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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The System

They got you running in circles Nine to Five Then they brainwash you with False advertising They tell you what they want you to know And you consider it the truth Nobody is opening their eyes To the lies that surround us everyday Our global economy is depleting the world Of our lives and natural resources And are you happy? You work for the system... Praise the Lord Bless the ammunition God wants you to go to war Freedom is only available through death You should be made to resign Resign your wealth to the poor Resign you food to the hungry Resign your lives to the hands of justice

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Cut the Red Chord by Atreyuisonfire, literature

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Cut the Red Chord

Sometimes Dying seems so much better than living in this world Sometimes living seems so pointless when you're already given the knife with all these actions taken against me there is no time to fight Sorry - I hurt you Do you - Still hate me? I didnt - mean to do what I did chorus Cut the red chord - break the ties of our hearts I cant love anybody - I've already given you my heart "will you forgive me... for what has happened?" Sorry - I hurt you Do you - Still hate me? I didnt - mean to do what I did I am forced to spend; another morning alone But your picture guides me your smile confides me I bear the scars alone,

Suicide and Apologies by Atreyuisonfire, literature

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Suicide and Apologies

With the images that will remain painted in my mind I see you as this portrait; of forever ending beauty. And the sun glows up your eyes and I I see the sky in your eyes I see the sun in your smile I see the love in your heart and I remember, I remember holding you. I roll my eyes back to see the things we did (to each other) Im sorry, Im sorry I roll my eyes back to see the things we did (to each other) Im sorry, Im sorry this constant pain inside me I confide to the corner of my empty room. I see the place on my bed where I lay alone and I cannot picture you there next to me. I see the sky in your eyes I see the sun in yo

??? by GcRadioGirl, literature

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???

She knows where she is well most of the time but then theres just me im so out of my mind she thinks the same thoughts they all pass on by its like were the same but she said goodbye... to everything old hello to the new i cant hear her scream wen i know that im you... Looking in a mirror we see a point of view the face wears the same makeup but it looks better worn on you she crys another tear and theres nothing you can do cause when shes falling down with fear im falling with her too...

Broken and Bleeding by funkykate, literature

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Broken and Bleeding

a hole burns deep inside of me every breath a flame taken never set free, i hold you tight never let go, you don't turn aroned your face you don't show i needed you, where were you back then where were you when i wanted to talk back when back when i felt so lonesome and cold though i knew you alive, but no shapes you mould a long time feels that my heart keeps breaking expressions long wittled down weathering and forsaking how could you? how dare you say these things now i put my heart and soul into us and where are we now? we're broken and forgotten, lost and bleeding your eyes burn away and slowly I stop breathing

I didn't mean it like this. by emptyxfear, literature

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I didn't mean it like this.

My eyes are closed But I'm not blind You can't see my tears Because they fall on the inside Break the clocks And build more time I asked for the truth I was given your lies Why hurt him? ...To hurt me? Your selfishness Is but ordinary I'll accept the blame But not his fate How long will you leave it How long does he wait? Summers pass Winters to Spring Drifting away As his life is ending He'll wait for you At you're grave Here's to the worst decision You ever made

Friendship Rewritten by funkykate, literature

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Friendship Rewritten

If i had a chance to live our friendship again I'd make sure it didn't end with this pain I'd have told you the first day we met That we'd be friends forever and I'd never regret the times i told you i loved you We laughed until the sun dawned We kept crying till a smile had formed But then one day we shouted and screamed and we broke contact like we never dreamed My life was filled with haterd so hollow Where neither of us would be in each others tomorow We got on with our familiar lives Without each other by each others sides My life ended so dull and boring All i wanted to do was see if this pain and anger hurted you as muc

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Meaningless Feelings by RoadragedRoadrunner, literature

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Meaningless Feelings

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May 26, 2004

InMe + Murder!!!!!!

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Last night I saw InMe, and they were fuckin amazing.  I touched the singers of all the bands that played too :D! So now I'm even more in love with InMe, if that was possibl? On top of that, I got to see a murder/attempted murder scene!  There were pigs walking up and down in lines looking for bullet cases/a knife.  And I asked one of the pigs if they could get a body bag out of the back of their car, and they ignored me :( Damn filth!  The windows into the ambulance were clouded so I couldn't see a body/corpse either :( I'm a pretty sick person :D But nevermind, I got used to it, you have to aswel :P P.S. Check out GcRadioGirl (https://www.deviantart.com/gcradiogirl) (a.k.

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May 23, 2004

Jet

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So atm I'm just sitting here with Jet - Look what you've done, on repeat.  Feeling shit, don't know what to do.  Everthing fucks up eventually, so I guess I was expecting it deep down.  Just didn't want it to be. Aparently it's all going to work out though, I know I believe that somewhere inside me too.  I don't know anymore really. I really am fucked up. A quote (about me, from one of my ex best friends): "you're a fucked up waste of a life". So, umm I'm going to go try write something... (I recommend that you download Jet - Look what you've done, if you like depressing music.  It ent my type of music but i love it :horns:)

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May 21, 2004

Suffocation

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Today was pretty funny. I was in my room playing guitar for several hours until my fingers started cramping and i had to snap them back into place with my other hand.  Then I put some Nirvana on and lied on my bed, and fell asleep without realising.  After a couple of hours, I was having this dream that I was trying to kill myself by suffocating myself with a pillow...then I woke up and couldn't breathe, cos I actually was suffocating myself. When I could breathe again it was pretty fucking funny...weird, but funny all the same. Things are still shit, but I guess they'll improve soon. Or at least I hope :confused: (I'm just about ready

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Aug 25, 2004

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Haha.. Thought you might appreciate this.. if you ever come back

Jun 17, 2004

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Can I cheat? Go on.... No matter what i tried it wouldn't go up to the next!

damn Ip adressess. lol, in a bit dude

kate x

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Jun 15, 2004

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WOO!!!

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Jun 1, 2004

oi bitch

post some work

or i'll be on your case

like erm ... hurt your arm again

and whop your arse!

cuz im the only girl your scared of.

HA!

okay I'm sorry

See you soon

yup, im bored. sorry. bubbye

May 26, 2004

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congrats dude
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May 26, 2004

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Hey there.